But Are You Feeling Better?
But Are You Feeling Better? The Persistent Question that Emphasises the Weight of Forever There’s a particular kind of grief that comes with being diagnosed with a lifelong illness. Not the dramatic, cinematic grief people expect. Not tears on the kitchen floor every day or some huge breakdown where the world stops turning. It’s quieter than that. More insidious. It slips into your life slowly, settling itself into every corner until one day you realise nothing feels untouched anymore. Nothing is safe from the reach of your illness. Because, as much as you don't want it to be true, sometimes it simply feels like your illness is you and you are your illness. Being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis has cracked something open inside me. Another diagnosis. Another 'there is no cure'. Another 'it's lifelong management'. Another injection, another scan, another disablement. And that is the worst part. That it hasn’t happened in isolation. Because nothing in my body e...